Things for REALS.

Man, God is laying the bricks! Things are beginning to fall into place I never would have expected. There's so much ahead. There's so much that's gonna happen. I'm so excited I don't know how to express the thoughts. Seeing change come about for real for once is the craziest feeling that has ever existed in me.

I can't let it ever stop. I can't turn away. Man O man there's no way I can ditch all this and go looking for my life again. I love being dead! I can just sit here and be OK now. I didn't think I'd ever feel this feeling again, but now I do.

I'm so excited about the light that's starting to creep around people hearts. I'm so stoked about the doors being opened, so the cool can come on in. O man, I'm so pumped up.

Wheels keep rolling

Tonight, I finally can and will say that I have never been more excited about Christ in all my life. In days to come, I hope I can continue to say that, because I know there's no end to his joy! There's no way God's world can get boring! His joy will never end!

We've opened up support group again and tonight was a landmark. I know I left more excited than I was all day, I know Joey got some words and so did Chris. I'm hoping everyone else is pretty stoked, because I know I am.'

Joey's and my spirit are saying the same thing about Del Rio. It's one thing to feel something, but another thing when someone else feels it too, confirming it.

There's a job to do.

LaDonna Taylor

There's a lady who plays violin who comes to visit our church every once in a while. I've only seen her play once before, and I was turned off. It's not that she was doing anything contradictory to what I believed, it just seemed like what she came to say and do would been better at a concert or something rather than as a replacement to our actual Sunday service. I just like going and listening to my pastor on Sunday mornings I guess.

Anyways, she came again yesterday--Easter Sunday. This time was different. I still can't put a finger on it. All I know is that God was speaking to me yesterday while she played and talked. The first time she came I just sat there like a rock. Anyways, she called for prayer and I decided to go because I realized the only reason I didn't want to go up there is because I had a bad first impression and I was full of pride.

I realized that God can and should be worshiped in any atmosphere available.

Romans 7 and 8 Journal 1: Introduction

Tonight at the youth board meeting, Pastor Dot said I should read the book of Romans and speak on it next Wednesday (April 10). I said, "Wow! The WHOLE BOOK of Romans? In one night?" And, since she knows me, she says, "Ok, I see what you mean. Let's narrow it down to Romans chapter 7 and 8. Those are some good ones." But I was still taken aback about speaking about BOTH CHAPTERS in one night, but I think I'll be able to do it somehow. There's SO MUCH in those chapters.

I've decided to read these chapters at least every day. A couple times a day wouldn't hurt, but we're just gonna start out with once a day. Even if I don't get to say everything that hit me while I read this in the actual youth service next week, I'll at least have it posted here. Take a break and read Romans 7 and 8 if you want to completely understand what I'm gonna be talking about. Here's tonight's thoughts:

After having read through these two chapters for the first time this week, there's too much to cover, so I'm glad I'm stretching this out over a couple of nights.

This passage is really cool because Paul (the writer) presents the sin problem, talks about how God solved it through Christ, and then builds and builds and builds on just the sheer amazingness of Jesus and his incredible love. It starts explaining that the "old man" has died because Christ saved us from sin and now we're like a widow who is free to marry. Being free, we have married ourselves to the freedom Jesus offered. Sin no longer calls the shots and and carries us all the way to the grave.

Paul gets realistic here. I'm sure we all ask ourselves the question: "If we're free from sin, how come we sin?" right? I know I have. It doesn't make sense to hear that we're free from sin if we can look at our lives and notice that we're sinning everywhere, does it? That's where we go wrong, and I realized why for the first time tonight. Just read these next few sentences slowly so they'll sink in.



God has gotten rid of the old, sinful man.

We are not like we used to be, we are changed.

Sin is no longer in us... but we sin...

...why?

Remember this: Sin is no longer IN us. It just GETS IN OUR WAY.

We are no longer controlled by sin, but it's still there because it exists to block our path.



Does that make any sense to you? It hit me like a moment of epiphany. Sin IS no longer in me! It's just in my way. That makes me feel so much cleaner! But it also makes me feel much more like sin is just a big stupid thing in the way. Like trash I can kick to the side as I'm walking by. Man, that makes me feel a lot more like the conqueror God has made me!

A lot of people will read Romans 7 and get to that passage towards the end where Paul talks about how confusing it is that he still sins, and these readers will close the book, sigh, and just say to themselves, "Man life just sucks, seems like I'll never be able to do it. It even says it here in the Bible." I know I have before. But you should NEVER stop there in the chapter! Paul goes on to explain what God has done for us with Jesus's sacrifice to make us free.

Chapter eight just expounds and expounds and expounds on how amazing Christ is and how great his love is for us. I think the part I loved the most already is the part about prayer. Paul says not to worry about not knowing what to pray. Prayer isn't magic. He says Jesus will take whatever we've got and give it to the Father, who knows us better than we even know ourselves.

GOD UNDERSTANDS OUR JIBBERISH!!

Boy, he loves me more than I'll ever UNDERSTAND. It's such a weird thought. It's like his goodness never ends.